What It’s Like Being A Stay At Home Mom

I have experienced being both a single working mom and a stay-at-home mom. Currently, I am fully dedicated to taking care of my two-month-old and one-year-old as a stay-at-home mom. While both roles come with their own set of challenges, personally, I find being a stay-at-home mom to be more mentally and physically demanding.

I absolutely cherish the opportunity to spend abundant time with my beautiful girls, but it can also be overwhelming to be at home constantly, attending to the needs of crying babies. The lack of personal time makes even simple daily hygiene tasks a challenge to accomplish. I often feel drained and devoid of energy. The exhaustion seems to follow me ceaselessly.

Another obstacle I face is battling with postpartum depression, and the confinement of being indoors all the time compounds this struggle. I can’t help but feel guilty for not always being mentally present for my babies. Although children may sense when something is not right, it seems as though they have grown accustomed to this version of me and see it as normal. The constant battle with mom guilt weighs heavy on my heart.

When it comes to playing with my one-year-old, I am limited by my energy levels. I can only engage for 5 to 10 minutes before needing a break and feeling too fatigued to continue. Despite these challenges, I know there is a positive side to being a stay-at-home mom. Unfortunately, my current mindset, clouded by postpartum depression, prevents me from fully experiencing it at the moment.

My love for my girls is immeasurable, and I yearn to give them my best mentally. However, I acknowledge that I am not able to do so right now. There are moments when I feel like I have failed as a mom, always reminding myself that I need to do better. Yet, I also understand that I can only do so much.

In these moments of doubt, seeing my babies smile provides a glimmer of hope and fleeting happiness. I am committed to working on myself to become a better version of me, for the sake of my daughters. They deserve it. This account only provides a partial understanding of what it’s like to be a stay-at-home mom. Once I rediscover myself and overcome this postpartum depression, I will share with you what it’s like to be a stay-at-home mom before and after regaining a sense of self.